Thoughts of Paige

Hurt Happens. Why? We open up, we close up. We react. Not always to real thoughts but to emotions. We react not to our minds but to our hearts. We try to block out what we know as fact. We close our eyes to the truth, the reality...because it’s harsh. Instead we focus on what is unreal, imaginary, our deepest hope. Hoping without reason the outcome will change. That our wishful thinking might come true. That it might actually change reality-- reality that tells us what we don’t want to hear, makes us aware of things we don’t want to see, and changes us into people we don’t want to be. What does hurt do? Does it change us for the better or the worse? Does it grow us or shrink us into the worse possible imitation of ourselves? Does it get us up on our feet or just tear us to the ground? Do we let it defeat us? Cause defeat is often the outcome... the outcome for those who have no imagination, no hope, and no understanding of what it truly means to listen to your heart. Defeat is a choice. A choice to get up without a smile. To cry instead of laugh. To hate instead of love. And to live in harsh reality not in hope. The hope that each day we get up it will be better than the last. Positivity can change you, and change can be for the best. But somehow we twist the good. Why? Because to many, good is imaginary and bad is reality. But for us who decide against negativity, bad is not bad at all, and good is in the heart. Even in the hearts of the hurting, the utterly broken. Why do we put our head in our hands and worry anyway? Hurt can not last forever. We worry that yet again our heart will break and when it does it will no longer be able to mend. But hearts are always mendable. They were made like that. They were made to be loved and broken. Healed and hurt. Its all a part of who we were made to be. We are all broken. We all get hurt. And we all hurt others. Its all about timing and waiting until eventually imagination finally becomes reality and that hope emotion does leak into action. Waiting until someone heals the hurt, mends the unmendable, and loves the most unlovable part of your inner closed-up soul...